A few years back, imagining my future to what it would become, didn't threaten too much. I naively thought I would remain in control (pretty much) of this stage of life. Most of the folk I know who have chronic conditions had similar thoughts. Many think differently now.

 My wife & I had a few days away last week just to breathe different air after visiting so many medical and allied health services week in, week out. And it's all on again this week.  I feel my frail mind is tearing into at least 2 parts. One part is very grateful I could visit these people. The other half is thoroughly fed up with it all. If anyone thinks I'm having a good old grizzle, they've missed the whole point. I'm at the place known all too well by many with painful chronic health issues. Whatever control I imagined I had, is no longer. I find this a really big pill to swallow. Today a Radiologist gave me a summary of recent scans. None of it was good news. He said, "You need to take it easy for the next few days." Really! And I know there are many who are a lot worse off than myself. I know that. But this is the world I live in. God-given courage to go to bed tonight and get up tomorrow to be the best I can be. That is my next step. I salute everyone in a similar place.