You could be forgiven for expecting it will be 'chronically painful' for
you to read and consider what follows. But my hope is that it isn't too
unbearable to read about the different aspects of chronic pain affecting
millions of us.

That Unseen Trigger

I really didn't think I would be caught unprepared when the effects of my chronic conditions became apparent to me. I was sure I'd see them coming. Not so smart, I know. I didn't realise most of these effects were already present.

The other night my emotional roof caved in all because I couldn't see enough to unravel the sleeve of a shirt I had hung on our bathroom door handle. I was king-hit by a shirt sleeve. Disappointed with myself doesn't come close. After I got my BP and pulse under some control, I realised just how close under the surface is this parasite-trigger called Frustration. And it is a terrible trigger. When I let it, frustration drains my mind and body of hope, a willingness to try to cope with the present and any self worth I might have. I know when this parasite bites. It injects 'useless' into every part of my being. On good days I see this for what it is. On not-so-good days...life sucks.

Every day and night I have to humbly reassure myself I am worth more than the sum of all my parts, even if some parts don't work properly. I have to decide to be grateful to the One who made me for who I am. Who I am is way more precious than what I am.

As Soon As You Can Please

The Last One In-My Champion